found scraps of poetry in his room.
They then produced some unfinished verses, written on small pieces of paper, unconnected, and of a most melancholy cast. Among them was the fragment of an ode, which, at my request, they lent to me to copy; and as you may perhaps like to see it, I will write it now.
O LIFE! thou lingering dream of grief, of pain, And every ill that Nature can sustain, Strange, mutable, and wild! Now flattering with Hope most fair, Depressing now with fell Despair, The nurse of Guilt, the slave of Pride, That, like a wayward child, Who, to himself a foe, Sees joy alone in what’s denied, In what is granted, woe! O thou poor, feeble, fleeting, pow’r, By Vice seduc’d, by Folly woo’d, By Mis’ry, Shame, Remorse, pursu’d; And as thy toilsome steps proceed, Seeming to Youth the fairest flow’r, Proving to Age the rankest weed, A gilded but a bitter pill, Of varied, great, and complicated ill!
These lines are harsh, but they indicate an internal wretchedness, which I own, affects me. Surely this